No I wont drink your Jesus koolaid

So the place that I’ve been staying is a evangelical conference center owned by a group of people who are trying to establish a 24/7 “house of prayer” on the grounds of the camp. Because I was raised as and remain to be  evangelical christian I don’t at all have a problem with this and appreciate having like minded people around me. The downside for me is that because I spent two years in a very cult like urban missions program that left me very skeptical  of the “all of nothing” additude of a lot of these types of churches. The organization that I was a part of in Atlanta preached a brand of theology that  required ultimate submission to authority and that it was sin to ask questions or to not to what you were told. As a test of your devotion the Lord and your leadership during the 3^rd year of the program you are driven blindfolded to a airfield and told that if you don’t jump out of a plane then you don’t love Jesus and you are in rebellion and headed to hell. Having been immersed in this nonsense for almost 2 years its made me very suspicious of anything that even slightly resembles that. So I have come to a conclusion with these people who are letting me stay at the camp. Yes I appreciate you and what you are doing for me but no I wont drink your Jesus kool aid.